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Human life

We live together for five years. We love each other with no bounds. When it ends you say that you will always be there for me.  But you're not.  You're going to pass through town to buy a bracelet for your daughter.  Who I never met.  I am human.  I feel sadness, regret. I miss you.  I know it's over.  Yet you are not here for me, always, like you said.  I was a child once.  How is a bracelet going to sew the seams of your five year absence? I am not a child.  But I feel pain, sadness, loneliness.  A coffee with me and a hug would mean so much more Than a bracelet to a child  A child you never welcomed  into my life. 

Patience

What happened to chivalry? What happened to bringing a woman flowers on a first date? In the dating world people are not concerned about who they are with, but who else they can swipe when they get home.  Even married men - jealous they are not single.  My naivety is gone.  My trusting heart plundered by dating apps and the men who frequent them.  He said "stop looking", he so wisely said that months ago.  When he called me I was sleeping. Startled awake I asked "Who?"  And I cried. Like when my man before him would startle me awake and I would cry, scared, and he would comfort me.  Lord I have had two good men. I loved them both. I guess I still grieve them.  Give me patience Lord. Time to heal and take care of myself. Time with family.